Sunday, July 14, 2013

My update

Hi everyone,

I know it has been a very long time since my last post and I am sorry for that. On June 16th, the family and I went to California for our Disney Vacation. The trip was a mix of everything (good bad sad etc.)

The first 2 days there were great. We went to most of the rides at Disneyland and took lots of pictures. (ken will upload those later). As the week progressed the discomfort I had in my hips progressed from being a nuisance to being unbearable pain. We ended up in the ER twice to get stronger pain meds. Ken even tried to send me home a few times but I wouldn't let him.

We made it home as scheduled and Ken took me straight to the ER (against my wishes because I just wanted to go home and sleep). Luckily, he didn't listen to me because I had my first seizure that morning.
The doctors also gave us the news that the tumors were throughout my brain, lungs and abdomen, and that there wasn't anything they could do for me that would have any significant improvement.

This was hard news to hear.

I have been in the hospital ever since that day (June 24th) and my condition is weakening each day. I am comfortable though and the doctors and nurses are very good at keeping my pain away with medication. The days are passed with me sleeping with the occasional quick conversation if I can manage it but you have to lean in close to hear what I am saying.

Through all the sadness that has come from this chapter of my story, it isn't all bad. I have seen friends who have already passed from this life, I am surrounded by so many people who I love and who love me back. I am still able to crack a joke now and again which brings smiles to my family

and........................................................................................................................................................... I am still fighting for my life. I WILL NEVER RELINQUISH MY FIGHT AGAINST CANCER! IT WILL NEVER BEAT ME! I WILL BEAT THIS DISEASE TO HELL WHERE IT CAME FROM AND WHEN THE ASHES AND DUST HAVE SETTLED FROM THE FIGHT, I WILL BE VICTORIOUS! WHETHER IN LIFE OR DEATH, MY LEGACY WILL LIVE ON, AND IF I PASS ON (I'M NOT PLANNING ON THAT HAPPENING) IT WILL BE TO RALLY THE ANGELS OF HEAVEN TO HELP ME FIND A WAY TO BRING A CURE FOR THIS DISEASE TO YOU SO THAT OTHER MOMS, DADS, AND CHILDREN DON'T HAVE TO SUFFER ITS EFFECTS!!!

I will sign off for the moment but hope to update you all again later on my status.

Love Geneva

7 comments:

  1. I love you so much sweetie...you have been through and handled more than I can even begin to fathom.
    You are truly one of the most amazing, inspiring and wonderful people I have had the privilage to know. My life will always be better because I know you, how could it not. Let us be strong for you, fight for you, pray for you. It is a fight you should not have to fight...life isnt supposed to be this way. Let us fight for you...we wont ever stop I promise. Love you G.

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  2. You are one strong lady and I am honoured to know you. You are an inspiration to all of us. You are in my prayers every day. Love always!

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  3. Geneva what a marvelous beautiful person you are. you are such a strong strong woman you have gone through hardship and heartache and still you carry on and I do believe you will do all you can to rid us of this incidous disease because you have never given in to it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your strength because you have taught and helped so many people with your honest blog and I will love you always for that we are all so grateful for you and thankful that our Heavenly Father allowed us the privledge of meeting you knowing you and loving you. You keep up the fight G cause we love you to much to let you go. ♥♥♥

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  4. Man Geneva, you just gave me everything I need right now. Hope. Life has felt hopeless lately. I've tried to find hope in myself, my partner, my children. I have looked for it so deep inside me, and I cannot find it. Yet you, the most amazing woman I know, have given me hope today. I love you more than you will ever know. Thank you.

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  5. I do not know you, but I love your attitude! Stay strong you are a great motivator. Best wishes

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  6. GV, the Lord's strength has been with you through this entire journey. His spirit has been your guide and comforter. You have grown immensely in your courageous battle and you have NOT GIVEN UP. I see you have defeated cancer already. As I followed you through your journey I hoped with you, laughed with you, cried with you, learned with you and realized you would always win. Three ambitious years you shared your steps to fight and never give up. You offered hope and courage to those who were wondering if they could one day be as strong and dedicated as you. You did everything right. Yes, you have beaten cancer. Cancer failed to break you and your spirit. It failed to diminish your will and testimony. It could not take your family, friends and loved ones from you. It couldn't even rob you of your royal birthright. You are an elect daughter of our Father in Heaven who has emanated His love, blessings and mercy to all those around you and your legacy will continue and never cease. You've been up close and insanely honest in your journey so that you continue to teach others as the Savior would do. There is a smile on His face for I know He is well pleased with you GV. You may at times allowed your vulnerabilities to impress upon the moment or sadness to dominate the day but that is not defeat --just mortality. You, your dear husband, your 3 little treasures who are your children, your family and friends are all eternally yours. Cancer did not win. So please keep fighting. Continue to rally, continue to touch the hearts and strengthen the wills as only you know how to do. My love and prayers are with you always. You absolutely won GV. Thank you for sharing. We are all changed for the better because you chose to fight and conquer and that you did. Never give up. Love u --------(@

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  7. GV, it is an honour to know you and you have brought inspiration and hope to all of those that have had the amazing privilege to have known you in this life...keep fighting and know that a legacy remains!
    Love, Ali Moro

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