I guess today I am not feeling so happy. I am miserable. I miss my kids. I miss feeling like me. I hate this foggy feeling in my head. I hate waiting for answers. I want to go home. I want to cry. I want to sleep. There are a lot of things I want right now I guess, but patience is just one of the things that I am going to have to try out.
I am bored in this hotel room. Ken is still sleeping. I have been up since 3:30am - yet again. So needless to say I am cranky and exhausted. I really can't explain how I feel. I just want to get started with things and get them over with so I can go home and re-claim normal. I don't even have a grasp on normal anymore.
Sorry I am down. I wish I could offer more to motivate and make you feel better, but I just can't do that right now. I can't find it in it for me currently, so I don't have it in it for you. I think it's just best if I shut off right now and try and find a few hours of sleep... I know that would help more than anything else.