I know I should be the last person on the planet who struggles with vanity. Especially after all I have been through. I have learned to love my self no matter what. Having said that, I am having a hard time looking in the mirror again and actually loving what I see.
This is going to sound all wrong, but I am sorry if I don't really feel like seeing all of those of you who love me no matter what size, shape or form I come in, but I am having a hard time looking at me right now.
This picture is awful, but I don't really feel like smiling. I just wanted to show you how quickly some drugs can change your appearance and make you feel like someone you were never meant to be again. I know it's just temporary, but, it is really hard on me.